Monday, Monday

A couple of days before Thursday's chemo, the nausea returned, so my pattern of good days was thrown off.  Managed to avert the serious nausea/headache on chemo afternoon, but forgot to take the Emend the next morning, which allowed the nausea to get ahead of me and take over.  Pretty much nausea every day, with mild headaches thrown in now and then.  So I'm on the couch, napping, reading the paper, and watching bits of TV.  Not particularly enjoying it.  This is probably due to my low WBC count.  In two days, I begin self-injecting Neupogen, for five days.  Perhaps that will make me feel better.  In a perverse way, I think self-injecting is sort of cool.  Grab the belly fat, poke the needle in, and push the plunger (probably not the technical term!) and in goes the medicine.  I tried it at the clinic, because I wanted to make sure I could do it, and it was a breeze.  The only thing that hurt was the sterile water I used as sample drugs.  Stung.  

Watched most of the Oscar's last night, which I hardly ever do!  Very strange event.  All the women are thin, beautiful and/or famous, and why do Americans live for this stuff?  The guys don't have to be as beautiful, and they don't get critiqued for their clothing choices - is that fair?  Anyway, I was glad to see Kate Winslet win, though I didn't see The Reader (read it quite a few years back), and loved that her dad whistled and then covered his head from the audience!  Nice that Slumdog won, but I think they went overboard giving them so many awards...and really glad that Sean Penn won and spoke up for gay rights, as did the writer of Milk.  Hollywood does do some good things now and then, despite all the glitz  and glam and posing, thank god.

Thanks to all for the meals that keep coming in - we enjoy the variety and creativity of all the cooks and shoppers.  Thanks for those keeping me cheered up with flowers - they are especially nice to look at on these gray days.  And thanks to all who send well-wishes, thoughts of healing, or prayers, whether silently or aloud - I really need them now.